throw some dreams around

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i'm just sayin' you won't do better

tell me have you heard that lately

i guess not, 'cause your friends all hate me

i'm not narcissistic, i just don't think you see

that i'd care enough for you to be indifferent

i'll share enough for you to be magnificent

you may not be the greatest but you're good enough for me

but who is really, it's just a word you use to justify

that there's nothing better but who really knows

i just know that i can settle with someone who really shows

that she feel the same, don't think i'm the greatest but she's not to blame

just a realist, just a logical extremist, 

just a girl, that considers me her man when it comes to this

     2

i'm just sayin' you won't do better

tell me have you heard that lately

i guess not, 'cause your friends all hate me

i'm not narcissistic, please don't straight up leave

'cause i'd treat you right, though i won't be a pushover

will stand up for my cause when push comes to shove

would set my foot down in anticipation for some love-

making, initiation is what i have on my playlist and

you know when we get down we get down for the real thing

don't mess around, it's as amazing as before innit

     3

i'm just sayin' you won't do better

tell me have you heard that lately

i guess not, 'cause your friends all hate me

i'm not narcissistic i just don't want for you to be without me

     4

i'm just sayin' you won't do better

tell me have you heard that lately

i guess not, 'cause your friends all hate me

i'm not narcissistic i just don't want for you to be without me

me to be without you. sorry i got carried away, i always bring up sex

when i want you to come out and play, when i want you to just straight up say

that you love me, that you want me. please, don't go on without me.

home is where you heart is

     

xin chao, she said, as if everything was unique

to keep you is no gain
but still it keeps me sane
to lose you is no loss,
'cept from letting go of all that stupid shit i aint,
or don't want to be; it's probably nothing and you probably love it, but i can't help but think that they see
my heart aims for trouble
my mind makes it double
the killing fields dont help my self-centering go subtle
haven't i got all i want, need,

and all the pussy i can eat,


latter's not what i aim for but still that shit sure keeps them wet,
and me fed,
makes my lower part red
and my face
thinkin of yesterday
and you,

sorry to keep you waiting but i still dont know.

turning the world upside down but still i tell myself that i've not -

- love

    








solen går ner. jag sitter nästan på stranden. armen är täckt med armband (inte riktigt täckt, men ändå väldigt många (inte så många, men nog är de stora alltid)). ett har sandvita stenar och olivgrona roskulor. favoriten. det är så vackert här. i den här delen av världen. så fruktansvärt. varmt. gahwd. jag förstår inte allt riktigt än.

ändå kan jag känna ett visst sug efter att faktiskt vara hemma i lagom kalla sverige. att få klä upp mig och känna mig fin. att kunna unna mig (här unnar man sig allt, så lyx är vardag). väldigt gärna vill jag kasta de konstanta svettningarna (sa jag att det är varmt här?). men det finns det tid for. senare.

men gud, så vackert det är. här. livet. mitt liv. nu. så mycket jag har haft nöjet att se, nöjet att uppleva. ni kommer få höra allting. senare. inte snart. jag har ju faktiskt ett par
månader kvar.